[All things considered, this is about how she expected him to handle the news. It's something that she's had so much time to accept and prepare for, but even with that knowledge she knows this is difficult to stomach. Especially given how much he loves her.
Perhaps telling him was too cruel. It's not like he could have even known, with their being here together and returning to separate worlds when they're time is done. But it's not like she can take the words back now.]
Oh, Jaskier.
[She looks back up at him and pulls a hand free from his hold and presses it to his cheek, wiping a his eye a bit with her thumb. Her own eyes are also quite wet, and her expression is soft and loving and sad. He can't offer much, but what he does offer means more than the world.
There's no undoing the past, and God knows she'd never ask him or anyone to try and achieve the impossible. That's all the more reason to treasure the present.]
Being here with you has been one of the biggest blessings of all. You've opened up my world in so many ways, and I'm a better person for it. I wouldn't trade my time here with you any more than I'd trade my time with Karin or Yuri. I... I want to focus on that, and not the fear of how it could end.
[Alice leans in, pressing her forehead to Jaskier's, and closes her eyes. It'll be some time before she's actually able to let the specter of 'what if he leaves tomorrow' go, but hopefully putting that thought out there will help it manifest faster.]
And if we are a bit selfish while we're here, I think that's all right. You, more than anyone, has taught me the virtue in that.
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Perhaps telling him was too cruel. It's not like he could have even known, with their being here together and returning to separate worlds when they're time is done. But it's not like she can take the words back now.]
Oh, Jaskier.
[She looks back up at him and pulls a hand free from his hold and presses it to his cheek, wiping a his eye a bit with her thumb. Her own eyes are also quite wet, and her expression is soft and loving and sad. He can't offer much, but what he does offer means more than the world.
There's no undoing the past, and God knows she'd never ask him or anyone to try and achieve the impossible. That's all the more reason to treasure the present.]
Being here with you has been one of the biggest blessings of all. You've opened up my world in so many ways, and I'm a better person for it. I wouldn't trade my time here with you any more than I'd trade my time with Karin or Yuri. I... I want to focus on that, and not the fear of how it could end.
[Alice leans in, pressing her forehead to Jaskier's, and closes her eyes. It'll be some time before she's actually able to let the specter of 'what if he leaves tomorrow' go, but hopefully putting that thought out there will help it manifest faster.]
And if we are a bit selfish while we're here, I think that's all right. You, more than anyone, has taught me the virtue in that.