[Nadine squeezes his hand, trying to stay calm herself. This is fine. It's fine. The important thing is that he hadn't hurt her, and Jaskier knows that. Though the actuality...well, she still thinks he's not going to enjoy hearing this.]
Uh...okay, so there's some important background you should know. Before all this, Dean was helping me work through some stuff. Demon related stuff. Teaching me how to fight them, using the Horizon to give me a safe and controlled environment to confront certain things and say things I was never able to say and...it was helpful, really. Cathartic.
[And highly personal, which is why no one knew about them until very recently. And even then, it's only Julie and Jaskier. But it's important to know, because it's why things happened the way they did.]
And when he came to me in the Horizon as a demon, I didn't know he was a demon. Nobody who knew at that point knew I should be told. So I thought what was happening was something similar. Like a roleplaying scenario for empowerment or something. Because...well...
[This is the part she's been dreading. Because it's embarrassing, in a way, and because it just isn't something the man who really loves her should hear. While they may not say it, she knows it. He loves her in a way no one else ever has. Which is what makes this hard. She knows he won't judge her or be angry with her, but there's a chance he'll be hurt and she hates the thought of it.
But as Geralt pointed out, he'd be more hurt if she never said anything.]
He got weirdly romantic and basically asked me to run away with him and be his dark demon queen. Obviously I said no. We had sex. That was pretty much it.
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Uh...okay, so there's some important background you should know. Before all this, Dean was helping me work through some stuff. Demon related stuff. Teaching me how to fight them, using the Horizon to give me a safe and controlled environment to confront certain things and say things I was never able to say and...it was helpful, really. Cathartic.
[And highly personal, which is why no one knew about them until very recently. And even then, it's only Julie and Jaskier. But it's important to know, because it's why things happened the way they did.]
And when he came to me in the Horizon as a demon, I didn't know he was a demon. Nobody who knew at that point knew I should be told. So I thought what was happening was something similar. Like a roleplaying scenario for empowerment or something. Because...well...
[This is the part she's been dreading. Because it's embarrassing, in a way, and because it just isn't something the man who really loves her should hear. While they may not say it, she knows it. He loves her in a way no one else ever has. Which is what makes this hard. She knows he won't judge her or be angry with her, but there's a chance he'll be hurt and she hates the thought of it.
But as Geralt pointed out, he'd be more hurt if she never said anything.]
He got weirdly romantic and basically asked me to run away with him and be his dark demon queen. Obviously I said no. We had sex. That was pretty much it.