[Jaskier can see it -- that exhaustion. And worse. Like before, once upon a time, his hands find her elbows, not to hold her up, but to balance her. To ensure to himself that just because she is tiring, that she will not fade away again.]
That is quite possibly the most ominous thing you could have said. I really appreciate hearing it out loud.
[The worry between his brow indicates he is actually the opposite of appreciative of it. And that she should think his fear could be better attributed than to her well-being. Jaskier is not a fool, and he does not know what the queen's next move will be, but he is considerably more safe with Ciri and Geralt and his own magic than most people in Cadens.
Not that he intends to hunker down and hide from this war behind the bodies of others. He simply... cannot.]
Then you must promise me before you do anything insanely rash, that you'll tell me. Send those mental letters, if you must, but if I do not hear from you often enough, Ellya herself will not stop me from finding my way to Thorne.
[ yennefer knows he can read it the moment she feels the weight settle over her, and while she has not reference to the feeling of his hands at her elbows, it supports her now. her eyes fall to his hands, clean and orderly and the way he wants them to be, here in the horizon, but they are still his, aren't they?
at the sound of his voice, yennefer feels herself snort, shaking her head once when she notes the worry in his face. it would have been easier if it had simply been a joke, if he had offered a way out of the weight of the conversation, but she knows better than to think any of this would be that easy. ]
The most? Really? [ not even yennefer is confident in ellya's next move, and there's so little for her to do until she can get out of her bed, until she can get back in the castle and out of the thumb of the various mages coming in and out of her sick room. and of course there is that smallest part of yennefer that feels ill, wondering if she hadn't been out cold, if there could have been something she could have done.
not that it matters. what's done is done.
promise me he says, and yennefer exhales. ] Jaskier- [ because he knows what he's asking, knows what he's telling her to do by mentioning what amounts to a check-in. ] I am a busy woman, you know this. [ but also, at the same time, before you do anything insanely rash. not if, but when. it makes her feel...not better, exactly, but less like she has to lie about the things going on in her mind. ]
You know I'll never forgive you if you return to Thorne and I'm not there.
It's not a challenge! [He feels he must state before she does include something more ominous, because he's already lying in a bed and recovering from a near-death experience; what more use could he have for the ominous?
Even optimism cannot survive forever. But damned if he will not attempt to keep its flame alive.
He watches her face as his name leaves her mouth as an exhalation, which in other circumstances -- that is, they were not both almost dead -- may have been very attractive indeed. Now where he once would've goaded Yennefer into fucking him again, perhaps, there is only a fear that every time may be the last time he sees her. That she will get in over her head. Again.
Every time he must marvel what a witch has come to mean to him.
Her answer sounds like the beginnings of an argument, but her final words make him smile. He leans in, kissing her cheek with a warm press of his lips.] Oh, no. I would hate to disappoint my beloved wife. The busy woman that she is.
[That is all he'll get from her, and it will have to be good enough. (It is.)]
[ as if against her will, there is a small smile that comes to her at that - it's not a challenge he says, and her brows still lift. in question, yes, but also in jest. in the fact that even now, even with everything hanging over them both, there will always be jaskier's ever present ability to do just this.
he leans in and kisses her cheek, and yennefer turns ever so slightly - as if she were expecting it. expecting him. there is a very desperate, exhausted part of her that wants to clamp down on his arm. to not let him go, despite the way she knows that she herself is the one who must return. who mustn't draw attention. if she spends too long like this, there is a higher and higher chance the mages in the infirmary will start looking too closely at her, and if any of them realized...
so instead, yennefer looks back up to him - finding his eyes, whatever unspoken things are written across his face, and whether or not she is satisfied by what she sees, yennefer does take a step back. ]
Speaking of your beloved wife, I'm going to need another night of wine, dear husband. You'll have to provide.
[ which is what will have to pass for a goodbye, for now. she has no idea just how frustrating the next few weeks will be for her, but she can guess. ]
[Jaskier lets her go. The witch passes out from under his lips and his hands nearly effortlessly. There is a fear that lingers in him, and one he thinks he will not easily get rid of, but for now... he can let her go.
They need this energy. They need to heal. And even in this distant, distant way, he feels the connect of his sandpiper. It is still there, watching over her.
(Not that she needs watching after, of course.)]
Hardly much of a request to make of me. If I'm inundated with anything, it is copious amounts of wine. [He gives her a smile, his fingers curling in against his palms. There is already a pulling of the waking world, and he will let it happen. For now.] Come find me in time.
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cointosser) wrote2021-04-12 08:58 pm
grips you by the lapel. understand I will wait forever
That is quite possibly the most ominous thing you could have said. I really appreciate hearing it out loud.
[The worry between his brow indicates he is actually the opposite of appreciative of it. And that she should think his fear could be better attributed than to her well-being. Jaskier is not a fool, and he does not know what the queen's next move will be, but he is considerably more safe with Ciri and Geralt and his own magic than most people in Cadens.
Not that he intends to hunker down and hide from this war behind the bodies of others. He simply... cannot.]
Then you must promise me before you do anything insanely rash, that you'll tell me. Send those mental letters, if you must, but if I do not hear from you often enough, Ellya herself will not stop me from finding my way to Thorne.
;A; MY HERO
at the sound of his voice, yennefer feels herself snort, shaking her head once when she notes the worry in his face. it would have been easier if it had simply been a joke, if he had offered a way out of the weight of the conversation, but she knows better than to think any of this would be that easy. ]
The most? Really? [ not even yennefer is confident in ellya's next move, and there's so little for her to do until she can get out of her bed, until she can get back in the castle and out of the thumb of the various mages coming in and out of her sick room. and of course there is that smallest part of yennefer that feels ill, wondering if she hadn't been out cold, if there could have been something she could have done.
not that it matters. what's done is done.
promise me he says, and yennefer exhales. ] Jaskier- [ because he knows what he's asking, knows what he's telling her to do by mentioning what amounts to a check-in. ] I am a busy woman, you know this. [ but also, at the same time, before you do anything insanely rash. not if, but when. it makes her feel...not better, exactly, but less like she has to lie about the things going on in her mind. ]
You know I'll never forgive you if you return to Thorne and I'm not there.
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Even optimism cannot survive forever. But damned if he will not attempt to keep its flame alive.
He watches her face as his name leaves her mouth as an exhalation, which in other circumstances -- that is, they were not both almost dead -- may have been very attractive indeed. Now where he once would've goaded Yennefer into fucking him again, perhaps, there is only a fear that every time may be the last time he sees her. That she will get in over her head. Again.
Every time he must marvel what a witch has come to mean to him.
Her answer sounds like the beginnings of an argument, but her final words make him smile. He leans in, kissing her cheek with a warm press of his lips.] Oh, no. I would hate to disappoint my beloved wife. The busy woman that she is.
[That is all he'll get from her, and it will have to be good enough. (It is.)]
wrapping?
he leans in and kisses her cheek, and yennefer turns ever so slightly - as if she were expecting it. expecting him. there is a very desperate, exhausted part of her that wants to clamp down on his arm. to not let him go, despite the way she knows that she herself is the one who must return. who mustn't draw attention. if she spends too long like this, there is a higher and higher chance the mages in the infirmary will start looking too closely at her, and if any of them realized...
so instead, yennefer looks back up to him - finding his eyes, whatever unspoken things are written across his face, and whether or not she is satisfied by what she sees, yennefer does take a step back. ]
Speaking of your beloved wife, I'm going to need another night of wine, dear husband. You'll have to provide.
[ which is what will have to pass for a goodbye, for now. she has no idea just how frustrating the next few weeks will be for her, but she can guess. ]
yes!
They need this energy. They need to heal. And even in this distant, distant way, he feels the connect of his sandpiper. It is still there, watching over her.
(Not that she needs watching after, of course.)]
Hardly much of a request to make of me. If I'm inundated with anything, it is copious amounts of wine. [He gives her a smile, his fingers curling in against his palms. There is already a pulling of the waking world, and he will let it happen. For now.] Come find me in time.