[There's definitely words, and they're definitely words in an order he recognizes as sentences, and Viktor and Jayce doing shady, possibly illegal things in back alleys -- so to speak -- is not necessarily out of character, but he --
Was anyone going to tell him --
Why did he need sudden, illegal surgery --
There's healers everywhere, and Nadine is still studying --
His mouth sort of gapes open as he struggles to decide on confusion, or deeply personal annoyance (with Geralt, because of course he fucking knew about this and decided to never once mention it, despite their living together), or concern.]
What the fuck? [is what he decides on, which comes out like an exhalation as he runs his fingers through his hair in disbelief.]
And no one thought to mention this to me? [Is the follow-up, with a sharp annoyance, and then taking her by the hand again and squeezing it so she knows that annoyance is not aimed at her, but surely at Geralt, who can smell a man's come from three years past.] This is possibly the most bizarre fucking thing you've unleashed upon me in the space of a few sentences, and that includes the demonic narratives, but. Yes. All right. All right. Yes. Sure. Illegal surgery, and machines, and -- and something something government. Got it. [He puts himself back together, reaching for a calm he would not attempt if anyone but Nadine was telling him this. One breath in, another out.] That is... it sounds incredible. And, to be fair, I thought he just looked like shit, not that he -- er. Was he dying? Has he been dying this whole time?
[Now he's just fucking embarrassed.]
Edited (tfw you switch from a prose tag to a log tag and muss the whole thing up) 2023-02-14 08:58 (UTC)
[About not saying more beforehand, about how bizarre it is and not leading up to it well.]
But...yeah, Jaskier, he was dying. I honestly just sort of thought people knew that, I wasn't trying to hide it or anything.
[But it wasn't her information to share anyway. She only knew because she'd found out by accident. Which had ended up working out, in the end, but it hadn't been anything she felt she had any right to talk about.]
And he was...it was getting really bad, and something needed to be done so we did it. I don't know if there's going to be any consequences, I got in trouble for not having a license and documents for my herbal remedies...but it's done and he's gonna be okay.
[That's the important thing. Even if there are repercussions, it's worth it, because Viktor is going to live.]
[Jaskier waves his hands a little frantically.] No, no, it's not your fault. This is... this is a lot to take in, that's all.
He lets her go to throw his arms in the air, then drop them. Oh, so everyone knew. But him! So that's excellent. Clearly it wasn't important he knew, anyway.] So many people on the Continent sort of look like that, I didn't think anything particular --
[To be fair, Jaskier is very much self-involved most of the time, especially with his time taken up the last few months with Libertas, and the cleaning, and the office purchase with Alucard, and being gone for a month for the park. He must have taken a turn for the worse.
He opens his arms, ready to squeeze her tightly.] I will make that go away if I must. What matters is you acted when he needed you. And you did it, my dear. You did it.
That's mostly what I'm apologizing for, just dumping so much on you at once. I promise...I'm going to try to work on that.
[She does go into his arms, laying her head on his shoulder and sighing heavily. God, she's tired. During it all she hadn't had time to panic or even think about much. There hadn't been time.
Now it can all catch up with her, the adrenaline fading and turning into exhaustion and the sort of relief that borders on hysteria.]
It's nice to know you'd bribe government officials for me, though. And I don't regret it, not even a little, I'm glad I could help. I just...Jaskier, it was so scary. It was like something out of Frankenstein, and I know that doesn't mean anything to you but the machine...I've never seen anything like it, and he was awake the whole time, even when I was operating...
[It really doesn't matter what Jaskier says to comfort her, anything will be welcome, she just needs to release this all and share it with someone. Who isn't also recovering from terrifying experimental back alley surgery.]
[He rubs a hand into her shoulder, the bumps of her spine, and only moves a little as he laughs.] It's how you communicate your crises. I understand.
[He only wishes they, perhaps, had a few less. However, the open communication is simply much preferable to, ah. Alternatives. Like being left completely in the dark about an illegal surgery -- but that one, he doesn't blame any of them for. It's not as if Jaskier could have helped much beyond the plants he already happily grows for Nadine's experiments and salves.]
I can't imagine, truly. [He holds her, tight.] If he was awake, then he trusted you even more. And you cannot say the trust was misplaced, either. Nadine, this is what you went to your studies for. Of course, I never would have wished for something so terrifying to happen, but... I think, in the end, it truly proves you have the heart for healing. Not only because you did it despite your fears, but because you cared more about helping Viktor than avoiding that which frightened you so.
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Was anyone going to tell him --
Why did he need sudden, illegal surgery --
There's healers everywhere, and Nadine is still studying --
His mouth sort of gapes open as he struggles to decide on confusion, or deeply personal annoyance (with Geralt, because of course he fucking knew about this and decided to never once mention it, despite their living together), or concern.]
What the fuck? [is what he decides on, which comes out like an exhalation as he runs his fingers through his hair in disbelief.]
And no one thought to mention this to me? [Is the follow-up, with a sharp annoyance, and then taking her by the hand again and squeezing it so she knows that annoyance is not aimed at her, but surely at Geralt, who can smell a man's come from three years past.] This is possibly the most bizarre fucking thing you've unleashed upon me in the space of a few sentences, and that includes the demonic narratives, but. Yes. All right. All right. Yes. Sure. Illegal surgery, and machines, and -- and something something government. Got it. [He puts himself back together, reaching for a calm he would not attempt if anyone but Nadine was telling him this. One breath in, another out.] That is... it sounds incredible. And, to be fair, I thought he just looked like shit, not that he -- er. Was he dying? Has he been dying this whole time?
[Now he's just fucking embarrassed.]
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[About not saying more beforehand, about how bizarre it is and not leading up to it well.]
But...yeah, Jaskier, he was dying. I honestly just sort of thought people knew that, I wasn't trying to hide it or anything.
[But it wasn't her information to share anyway. She only knew because she'd found out by accident. Which had ended up working out, in the end, but it hadn't been anything she felt she had any right to talk about.]
And he was...it was getting really bad, and something needed to be done so we did it. I don't know if there's going to be any consequences, I got in trouble for not having a license and documents for my herbal remedies...but it's done and he's gonna be okay.
[That's the important thing. Even if there are repercussions, it's worth it, because Viktor is going to live.]
But it was terrifying.
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He lets her go to throw his arms in the air, then drop them. Oh, so everyone knew. But him! So that's excellent. Clearly it wasn't important he knew, anyway.] So many people on the Continent sort of look like that, I didn't think anything particular --
[To be fair, Jaskier is very much self-involved most of the time, especially with his time taken up the last few months with Libertas, and the cleaning, and the office purchase with Alucard, and being gone for a month for the park. He must have taken a turn for the worse.
He opens his arms, ready to squeeze her tightly.] I will make that go away if I must. What matters is you acted when he needed you. And you did it, my dear. You did it.
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[She does go into his arms, laying her head on his shoulder and sighing heavily. God, she's tired. During it all she hadn't had time to panic or even think about much. There hadn't been time.
Now it can all catch up with her, the adrenaline fading and turning into exhaustion and the sort of relief that borders on hysteria.]
It's nice to know you'd bribe government officials for me, though. And I don't regret it, not even a little, I'm glad I could help. I just...Jaskier, it was so scary. It was like something out of Frankenstein, and I know that doesn't mean anything to you but the machine...I've never seen anything like it, and he was awake the whole time, even when I was operating...
[It really doesn't matter what Jaskier says to comfort her, anything will be welcome, she just needs to release this all and share it with someone. Who isn't also recovering from terrifying experimental back alley surgery.]
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[He only wishes they, perhaps, had a few less. However, the open communication is simply much preferable to, ah. Alternatives. Like being left completely in the dark about an illegal surgery -- but that one, he doesn't blame any of them for. It's not as if Jaskier could have helped much beyond the plants he already happily grows for Nadine's experiments and salves.]
I can't imagine, truly. [He holds her, tight.] If he was awake, then he trusted you even more. And you cannot say the trust was misplaced, either. Nadine, this is what you went to your studies for. Of course, I never would have wished for something so terrifying to happen, but... I think, in the end, it truly proves you have the heart for healing. Not only because you did it despite your fears, but because you cared more about helping Viktor than avoiding that which frightened you so.