[He only realizes the mistake he's made when her own hands draw back. As she continues, he slips his back underneath hers; whatever this might mean, in the long-run, it is nothing against her character. There is nothing shameful in enjoying oneself with however one pleases.
It is not for her that an ire, a bile, in him is rising.]
You have me. [He might as well get the most important thing out of the way first. Besides, he already is forming a plan in the back of his mind. Yes, it is absolutely an ill-thought-out plan, and yes, he will probably feel terrible about it later. But right now, even the thought of it feels like a splash of cold water on a burn.
Oh. No. He'll enjoy it.]
I didn't realize you'd opened up to him so much. To be honest, I've always found him rather annoying. [So he sort of assumed everyone else did. (And he's attempting to input a bit of levity to this conversation.)] I'm sorry the demon used that trust against you. I have enough experience with demons -- tertiary, to be fair -- to understand they are only somewhat like us. [Unfortunately, what he knows of the Wild Hunt has now changed things. But saying they are removed from humanity does not make them immune to those awful things that plague man -- like jealousy, and greed.] But it doesn't change what happened to you. I'm only sorry this... this all happened, and I had not a clue.
Yeah, he can be annoying, but...he knows a lot about demons and how they mess with people and that's not something many people could help me with.
[It's not like there's a bunch of therapists running around with a degree in demon therapy. But it had done some sort of good, as haphazard an likely unprofessional as it had been.
Her hand turns under his to thread her fingers through his.]
It really is okay. It's not great, but...I'm not a mess over it. I had to take some time and contemplate 'why me?' but I worked through that pretty much. Out of all my traumas, a dumb demon taking advantage isn't very high on the list.
[It happened. It was over. She hadn't been hurt, hadn't felt threatened or in danger at the time. Of course her stomach had dropped and she'd felt sick when she'd learned the truth, but it had been a sudden shock. The shock passed. Now it's just an uncomfortable memory, one of those little fuck-ups in life that one would rather forget but isn't going to lose any sleep over.
Or at least not much.]
And I'm sorry it took me all this time to tell you. I just...it wasn't a big deal to me so it didn't occur to me it might be to you.
[He cannot fault Dean that. It appears he does; Jaskier has no reason to doubt his knowledge there. And it is something he cannot truly help Nadine with on a level he would like. Ciri would understand, he thinks, but Ciri is intensely private -- sometimes to a fault -- and Jaskier would not dare volunteer her for such a thing.
Besides. He knows well what Voleth Meir wanted now, after his meeting with the shapeshifter. To him, that is one of the most human desires.
He laughs quietly. A dumb demon. His fingers squeeze hers.]
You needn't worry about it. And as much as I do loathe these dumb demons of yours... perhaps they, too, are able to see that fire in you that I adore as well. It is the sort that cannot ever be truly put out.
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It is not for her that an ire, a bile, in him is rising.]
You have me. [He might as well get the most important thing out of the way first. Besides, he already is forming a plan in the back of his mind. Yes, it is absolutely an ill-thought-out plan, and yes, he will probably feel terrible about it later. But right now, even the thought of it feels like a splash of cold water on a burn.
Oh. No. He'll enjoy it.]
I didn't realize you'd opened up to him so much. To be honest, I've always found him rather annoying. [So he sort of assumed everyone else did. (And he's attempting to input a bit of levity to this conversation.)] I'm sorry the demon used that trust against you. I have enough experience with demons -- tertiary, to be fair -- to understand they are only somewhat like us. [Unfortunately, what he knows of the Wild Hunt has now changed things. But saying they are removed from humanity does not make them immune to those awful things that plague man -- like jealousy, and greed.] But it doesn't change what happened to you. I'm only sorry this... this all happened, and I had not a clue.
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Yeah, he can be annoying, but...he knows a lot about demons and how they mess with people and that's not something many people could help me with.
[It's not like there's a bunch of therapists running around with a degree in demon therapy. But it had done some sort of good, as haphazard an likely unprofessional as it had been.
Her hand turns under his to thread her fingers through his.]
It really is okay. It's not great, but...I'm not a mess over it. I had to take some time and contemplate 'why me?' but I worked through that pretty much. Out of all my traumas, a dumb demon taking advantage isn't very high on the list.
[It happened. It was over. She hadn't been hurt, hadn't felt threatened or in danger at the time. Of course her stomach had dropped and she'd felt sick when she'd learned the truth, but it had been a sudden shock. The shock passed. Now it's just an uncomfortable memory, one of those little fuck-ups in life that one would rather forget but isn't going to lose any sleep over.
Or at least not much.]
And I'm sorry it took me all this time to tell you. I just...it wasn't a big deal to me so it didn't occur to me it might be to you.
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Besides. He knows well what Voleth Meir wanted now, after his meeting with the shapeshifter. To him, that is one of the most human desires.
He laughs quietly. A dumb demon. His fingers squeeze hers.]
You needn't worry about it. And as much as I do loathe these dumb demons of yours... perhaps they, too, are able to see that fire in you that I adore as well. It is the sort that cannot ever be truly put out.